.Tomodachi-san.

Dearest tomodachi-san,

Assalammualaikum awak..As the days and years passed..you will always be in my prayers in shaa allah..Syukran for all the time and greatful that Allah plan for us to meet..Semoga Allah bless you and your family as well as your future..Thank you for those moments..May He lead you to be the best of the man that in shaa allah can lead your family..amin

Lots of care,
Noona♡

.Little humble note from the heart.

Monday 17 December 2012:

Amat terharu diri ini dapat solat di sebuah masjid di China..Ma shaa allah...biarpun suasananya berlainan..kedengaran laungan azan yg memanggil hamba Allah untuk bersolat sangat menghayat hati..Ya Allah..bilal mengetuk sesuatu peralatan untuk menandakan waktu maghrib (16:52) dan setelah itu melaungkan azan di luar masjid..selesai..dengan secara beramai mereka melaksanakan solat jemaah bersama-bersama di bahagian belakang musolah..saya faham ya Allah apa yang mereka katakan...saya pernah dengar ya Allah...itulah yg senantiasa di ucapkan dibibir umat Islam sewaktu menghadapmu ya RAbb...aku tersentak dan terharu amat ya Allah...memang tiada Tuhan selainmu ya Allah...Engkau Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang..sesungguhnya kami datang menghadapmu ya Allah..tidak kira dari mana kami datang...bahasa apa yang kita acapkan...lima kali sehari..kami mengucapkan kata-kata kasih yang sama untuk mu ya Allah...betapa kerdilnya diri ini menghadapmu Ya Rabb.. Terima kasih ya Allah atas pengalaman dan peluang ini...hamba tidak akan dapat menghayati pengalaman sedemikian jikalau tanpa keredhaanMu...syukran ya Allah kerana telah mempertemukan hamba sahabat-sahabat yang juga berperang keranaMu..kerana cintaMu...semoga Engkau terima amalan kami ya Allah...terima kasih ya Allah kerana Engkau telah satukan kami kerana cinta yang tulus ikhlas..CINTA ILLAHI.. 

Salam sayang dari beijing China..17:30

Nieu Jie Mosque

.Perjalanan Si Musafir.

Assalammualaikum

Masha' allah sungguh pantas masa berlalu dan in shaa allah akan mula perjalanan musafirku bersama sahabat-sahabat tercinta ke negeri China. Sebagai orang Islam, niat kita bermusafir sangat penting dan amat dititik berat. Alhamdullilah video di bawah ini banyak membantu dalam mempersiapkan diri bermusafir. Rindu sungguh hati ini untuk melihat kejadian Allah yang luar biasa (turunnya salji). Semoga perjalanan ke China kali ini dapat membuka hati dan mata untuk melihat betapa luasnya Islam telah tersebar dan untuk meriahkan ukhuwah bersama 'sisters' dan 'brothers' di sana, in shaa allah amin. Di samping video ini, buku kecil tetapi mantap ilmu yang telah dibukukan bertajuk 'Bekalan Musafir dari Ustaz Wan Mohd Yusof Wan Ali' sangat berfaedah. Alhmdullilah, buku ini memudahkan untuk merujuk kepada doa-doa untuk dibaca semasa bermusafir. In shaa allah semoga perjalanan ini dilindungi Allah dan dipermudahkanNya untuk membuka hati ini untuk lebih bersyukur dengan segala nikmat yang telah diberikan oleh yang Maha Agung.

(video contributes -idayahyazin2003)

There's a prayer room!

.Assalammualaikum kawan-kawan.

Today in the office, I was busy discussing with Boss and the other teachers of the equipment to buy in IKEA. While busy discussing on the day that we should go together to hunt for those items we were also searching for people (especially our own family members :)) to aid us in providing the transport to carry the loads home. When suddenly Boss said, " Monday can? My husband free can fetch us". I quickly responded, "Haiyah Boss, Monday so long leh. I scared my "off day" (the crucial time where woman suffered those unbearable cramps:P) finish already leh". Boss replied, "Haiyoh you ah". Then I cotinued, "eh must haiyoh lah, because wait I must consider my prayer time you know". While busy photocopying the Nursery stuff, my dearest ex-partner said excitedly, "Partner, you know at IKEA have prayer room eh! Then, I tell my husband. Then you can pray there". "Yah I know partner there is. Good Job eh partner! Next time my new partner will also be like you!" I exclaimed. "Yalah go anwhere find prayer room for you!" she laughed. Without knowingly, this scenario left a deep impression on me today and I am still smiling right now remembering the conversation. 

Ya Allah yang Maha Kuasa. Tidak akan dibuka hati seseorang tanpa hidayah darimu. Sesungguhnya jikalau kita bersungguh-sungguh ingin mengenali sesuatu atau mempelajari sesuatu, biarlah hingga menara gading. Begitu indah sekali apabila kita dapat berbual mengenai agama kita dan kepentingan solat dalam Islam dengan orang yang bukan Islam. Ex-partner saya yang bukan seseorang penganut Islam begitu tertarik dan suka bertanya kenapa dan mengapa seseorang Islam itu perlu solat. Dan hari ini juga buktinya yang perbualan dan perkongsian kami selama ini ada juga sedekit sebanyak menjejas cara beliau melihat Islam. Whenever she goes, if she sees something that she hasn't seen before about the Muslim people she bumped into in Singapore context, she will be so curious to find out and asked various questions pertaining to us, Muslim.

 Previously she was asking about why some woman needs to put on niqab and why man and woman cannot shake hand together when she found out that I rejected a father who wanted to shake hand with me after the Parent Teacher Conference. Also, when we are going out, just like today to watch movie, she is considerate enough to wait until Maghrib is over then to watch the movie. And you know what it takes to make her understand. JUST THREE WORDS. Talk About It. Alhamdullilah she begins to understand about the need of Muslim to pray when I openly talk to her about it. Always remember that if whatever we share and talk about comes from a sincere heart, Allah will help us deliver the message across to the other party's heart in  His own beautiful manner, in shaa allah. It's remarkable to see how amazing the non-muslim sometimes try their best to understand the Muslim way of life.

I sincerely hope with this sharing, we the Muslims, should also stand up for our own religion. If others can make attempt to understand our prayers and also the importance of fasting, then we, whom are born Muslim, should uphold our religion and portray the correct way which a Muslim should model. Jikalau seseorang yang kafir boleh menilai berapa pentingnya solat pada diri kita, mengapa tidak pula kita? Harta di dunia bila-bila masa sahaja boleh dicari. Tetapi bekalan akhirat jikalau dilupakan, hinalah kita nanti di akhirat kelak. In shaa allah kita bersama-sama menyebarkan agama kita dengan cara yang sebaik-baiknya dan memperlihatkan kepada orang-orang kafir betapa indah Islam ini sebenarnya in shaa allah.

A search for a Mosque

 

.The choices we make.

Working in a non-Islamic organization requires a challenging role to explain as well as to clarify the importance of performing our prayers to the non-Muslims without jeopardizing our work . Yesterday had to attend a full-day workshop which made it seem impossible to perform the Dzuhur prayer. Was made known that the place disallow Muslims to perform their prayers, therefore my only option was the Mosque. The nearest mosque(s) were Masjid At-Taqua and Masjid Al-Ansar. Been to Masjid At-Taqua previously, but since the place can be quite lonely for ladies and being all alone, Ive opted to perform my prayer at Masjid Al-Ansar instead.

Alhamdullilah syukran with His willingness, I received the permission from my new principal (whom was a Non-Muslim - May Allah bless her) to perform the Dzuhur prayer. As this was my first time heading towards the mosque alone, I had to depend solely on my GPS:p and Him. Tetapi nak dijadikan cerita, handphone battery pon dah nak mati. Tetapi syukur sangat kita sebagai Orang Islam, kerana kita ada Allah. With determination and the strong niat to search for the mosque, I took bus 9 and headed to Bedok Interchange. As I vaguely remember the place, I quickly took bus 60 and it was actually one stop away. Alhamdullilah was so relieved once reached.

However, upon looking at the state of the mosque, I became panicky. IT WAS APPARENTLY CLOSED DOWN! Looking at my watch its gonna be Dzuhur soon. I prayed and prayed and quickly think of  a better solution. Set in mind to get a cab and proceed to the next nearest mosque. Without fail, no cabs came for rescue. Tergerak hati ini pulak untuk jalan ke depan pintu masjid. Saw a signage 'Temporary Mosque (head left)'. Then beside it was a big banner showing the spot for the new temporary mosque which was infront of Blk 547.

At that point of time, I was so excited knowing that there was a mosque nearby. Therefore I started walking towards the direction shown. As I walked, with anxiety I looked at the block number on my left. It stated 'Blk 41'. I stopped and started to worry thinking that the mosque could be very far. But I kept walking and the next blk was 'Blk 42'. So I stopped. Tak boleh jadi ni. Dengan izin Allah ternampak seorang makcik. "Cik tumpang tanya mana masjjid Al Ansar yang baru ye cik?" Cik itu pun jawab, "Kat depan tu je nak, yang besar tu. Ikut bas tu. Besar terpampang tu nak masjidnya. Depan jalan terus je ye nak". After laughing to myself and thanking her, I walked forward as she had directed and finally spotted the huge mosque(which by the way doesnt look like a mosque yet) and the Blk no 547!!Haa..Alhamdullilah. (Seriously I need a pair of specs!).

Syukur sesangat found the mosque and happened to be praying with the little kids (which I think were from the K.I.DS A.L.I.V.E). Such a nice environment and the peace that we get nothing beats it. Anyway the abolution area its together with the ladies toilet and the muslimah prayer room is just behind the men's area and its being secluded with curtain:)). This experience brought back the excitement of being a musafir. It was certainly a thrill and cant wait for more. And for once in my life, I thought Bedok was a nice place to be at:))

May this video increase our Iman to not give up on Him, instead to trust in Him and to let Him be part of the choices we make..He has written our takdir afterall..Insyallah May He Bless us with what we have and don't forget to say alhamdullilah in whatever state we are in..amin

Syawal A Month......

 

 .To think of others too.

Syukran Illahi. We manage to went through Ramadhan and enter the Syawal month. All praises to Him, Almighty. Alhamdullilah, this year marks a memorable year where I had first time ever in my life perform the Eid prayer. Alhamdullilah, the feeling was full of greatness and bless only to Him. Thank you Allah for the nikmat that my parents are still here with me. Syukran Illahi. May this month too we spread our palms to pray for those who are less fortunate than us. Amin, Ya Rabb.

When you leave Everything to Him

 

.Nothing beats sincere repentance of a human being to His Creator.

May He give us the strength to come back to Him sincerely. Amin.

Indahnya Kitabmu Ya Rahman

 

.Tiada Setanding KitabMu.

Ramadhan Malam ke-24. Alhamdullilah syukran Ya Allah, majlis  Kahlimatul Al Quran berjalan dengan lancar dengan izinMu Ya Rabb. Pasti akan rindu hati ini akan suasana membaca KitabMu beramai-ramai. Masha'allah tiada setanding nikmat Al Quran. Syukran Illahi kerana membenarkan diriku ini menyaksikan dan merasai kemuliaan KitabMu ini.

Semoga ini membuka lembaran baru dan bermakna buat diriku ini yang masih kerdil dalam Ilmu agamaMu Ya Rahman. Semoga diriku ini akan terus mendamba dan merindu membaca KitabMu biarpun akhir Ramadhan kelak. Insyallah moga kita dapat bersama teruskan amalan-amalan suci biarpun sekecil zarah selepas bulan mulia ini, Dia lebih mengetahui keikhlasan hati masing-masing. Marilah kita bersama senantiasa berpandukan dan kembali kepada Al Quran sebagai perangsang dan pedoman hidup di dunia yang sementara ini insya'allah.

Insya'allah semoga diriku ini dapat meneliti dan menghayati bait-bait ayat di dalam kitab suciMu Ya Rabb. Insya'allah itu matlamat ku dan pasti matlamat kita semua insya'allah.

Zikir penenang hati ini amat sayu dan menghayat hati mendengar. Semoga deria-deria kita tidak kering dengan berzikir terhadap Illahi, insyallah, amin.

Ryndunya Ya Rabb...

 

 .Hati yang merindui.

Di masih bulan Ramadhan yang mulia ini, hambamu yang jahil ini masih perlu banyak memperbaiki diri. Pelbagai yang berlaku, sama ada berkenaan diri ini mahupun orang-orang yang tersayang disekelilingku. Semenjak ini, badan bertindak begitu lain. Doaku hanya Allah tidak memutuskan rahmat keatas diriku juga keluargaku dan teman-temanku untuk mendapat malam yang dinantikan insyallah. Sesungguhnya Allah lebih mengetahui.

Di samping cuba untuk mengawal hawa nafsu yang memang bukanlah mudah Ya Allah, hati ini juga ingin sangat ku curahkan untuk merinduimu. Bulan Ramadhan ini akan pantas berlalu. Sesungguhnya banyak lagi yang belum ku dapat kecapi. Tetapi, dengan ingatanMu untuk hamba-hambamu menjadi manusia yang bersyukur, diri ini tetap bersyukur yang alhamdullilah Ramadhan kali ini lebih berbeza dari yang lalu.

Bersyukur Ya Allah atas terbitnya rasa rindu. Rindu untuk mebaca KitabMu. Amin Ya Rabb. Engkaulah sumber yang memberi ku ketenangan dan memberi ku peringatan. Di samping rindu tersebut, terbit rasa rindu akan pekerjaan lamaku. Rindunya sangat berlainan dan membuat diri ini tertanya-tanya apakah tanda-tanda ini.

Insya'allah Ya Allah, Kau berilah diri ku ini petunjuk. Sesungguhnya perasaan ini tidak akan terbit tanpa izinMu. Insya'allah di bulan mulia ini akan ku cuba mencari jawapannya Ya Rabb.

Syukran juga Illahi atas teman-teman yang Kau pertemukan padaku yang sangat menyayangiMu. Alhamdullilah.

Ramadhan Mubarak is here...

.Begins from the heart.

Assalammualaikum. Alhamdullilah syukran, Ramadhan mubarak is here. Anticipating this Ramadhan with a different and mature feeling. Insya'allah it will be a better Ramadhan this year for myself as well for my family, friends and all Muslims around the world. Before reaching Ramadhan, I was very eager for it to come. However, when it is already Ramadhan, a part of my heart hopes that Ramadhan can be lengthen. I felt there still so much for me to learn to be a better muslimah. This past three Ramadhans taught me how essential to manage my time properly for ibadah, family as well as work. Its far from what I expected my body can handle. Its certainly different this year. And insya'allah I'll pray my new tiny step beginnings to be near and understanding as well as loving Al Quran will prolong even after Ramadhan ends insya'allah.

Temptations are everywhere ain't them? Only with His guidance, we will be able to resist those temptations. Ya Allah, the temptations to watch my Korean favourite drama is something I need to work with. Alhamdullilah, for now, I am still able to control. I pray hard, that my heart is strong enough to avoid the temptations and to remember Allah everytime when I think about all those story plots and charasmatic characters. Today's lecture heard by Nouman Ali Kahn again:), is about 'sexual desires'. It matches with what I am dealing right now. Allah berfirman, "Don't come close to the path of sexual desires". Allahhuakabar! Sexual desires are all those small paths taken that which will then eventually lead us to neraka jahanam. Every little closer step we take to nearing sexual desire, we are actually letting syaitan to control what we want to hear. Astargfirllahalazim! Therefore, Ya Allah I am more persevere to make use of this month to avoid watching my addicted Korean dramas which actually without me knowing had little tiny steps of sexual desires in its content. 

I admit I can't stop hearing lectures and sharing from Nouman Ali Khan. His sharings are sincere and straight to the point. His talk made me think most of the times. Why are we here to serve Allah? How do we serve Allah? How do we care for people around us? What makes Al Quran great? These are some fo the questions that would always pop when I listened to his talk every time. With His guidance, the words that came out from his mouth were able to stay in my heart too. Thank you Ya Allah, for bringing me some guidance through Brother Nouman. Allah is very merciful indeed. Allah will brings us closer to something/ someone positive that we ourselves didn't know initially. May this video benefit you as well.

Apakah Kekuatan Orang Islam?

.Yang Teristimewa.

Assalammualaikum. Soalan yang ingin saya kongsi yang telah diajukan oleh ustazah di dalam kelas tadi, "Apakah sebenarnya kekuatan Orang Islam?". Mari kita sesama rujuk kembali apa yang telah kita ketahui, pelajari dan bertaqwa tentang Islam. Dapatkah kita memikirkan jawapannya. Pelbagai tadi jawapan diberikan oleh teman-teman sedarjah yang merangkumi: "Keesaan Allah, Lillahita'ala (Nawaitu kita kerana Allah s.w.t), Rukun Iman dan Rukun Islam, Solat, Agama Islam itu sendiri, Al-Quran dan Sunnah".

Ustazah pun memberitahu yang kesemua jawapan kita hampir tepat. Ustazah pun lanjutkan soalannya, "Bagaimanakah kita semua dapat tahu mengenai Keesaan Allah, Lillahita'ala (Nawaitu kita kerana Allah s.w.t), Rukun Iman dan Rukun Islam, Solat, Agama Islam itu sendiri, Al-Quran dan Sunnah? Bukankah disebabkan seseorang yang istimewa?" Tiada lain iaitu Rasullulah s.a.w yang dicintai. Ya Allah kekuatan Islam itu sebenarnya ialah cinta kita kepada Nabi Muhammad s.a.w dan sepastinya Allah s.w.t. Tanpa Rasullullah s.a.w bertungkus-lumus menyebarkan agama Allah tidaklah kita dapat mengetahui Islam sebenarnya. Maha Suci Allah. Betapa besarnya darjatmu Rasullullah s.a.w. 

Sesungguhnya diri ini masih terlalu lemah. Ya Allah berilah kami kemudahan untuk mendekatkan diri denganMu dan bukakanlah hati kami untuk mencintaiMu serta juga Rasullullah s.a.w. Syukran atas kelahiran Nabi Muhammad s.a.w yang besar mukjizatnya. Maha Suci Allah. Ya Allah bukakanlah hatiku ini untuk lebih mengenali nabi kami, Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. Marilah kami sesama renungkan betapa dalam kita mengenali Nabi kita.

Marilah kita sesama berselawat ke atas Nabi Muhammad s.a.w:
(syukran kepada hamba Allah yang telah memperkenalkan saya dengan video-video di bawah)

Something about Arrogance

. The Inward is More Important .

Assalammualaikum. Have you ever looked at someone and just felt distance to be with that person? Have you ever judged someone through their appearance or behavior? With full regrets and disappointment I did and I am still learning to overcome all these negativity. After recollecting myself in updating this blog yesterday, I've came across a video about Islam and Ego from Nouman Ali Khan through MariaElena's blog (peliks.blogspot.com) . Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui. He knows.

Who am I to give judgement to others? Who am I to give assumption on others? Who am I? After listening to his talk, it rekindled inside of me how much I have changed inside. Have I really changed inside? The question bombarded me violently. Maybe. But to what extent? Do I do everything sincerely for Allah. Do I? Ya Allah, only to you I surrender myself and only you know what is inside of me. What we feel and do inwardly may jeopardize our spiritual especially to Allah. 

Astarghfirllah. With God fate, I had stumbled upon this hearing so as to reflect on my heart. Too many bad deeds have been done. How often do I remember Allah? Have I been deceived by my goodness all these while? Astargfirllah. Theres still so much for me to learn to be a humble muslim and it all begins from inside. Ego is the most dangerous source of which it may lead our good intention for Allah to another desire (for people or duniawi). Arrogance came without wanting but we know about it. Nobody knows about what  is going on inside our heart but only ourselves and Him. Our heart is the most vulnerable weapon.  I need to do something about my heart insyallah. I need to change my attitude and intention in life. I need to constantly remind myself to not expect results and try my best in everything I do as long as my intention is for Him. Can that happen? Insyallah with perseverance I would say. I do not want to be drowned in my egoness. Who are we to be in-charge of the results of our doings? Every decisions is in His hands. Insyallah Ya Allah, you show me the hidayah to cleanse my heart. I do not want to lie to myself as well as to you. I believe every new positive is not easy to implement, but insyallah. He listens.

There were too many take-away from this video. Below were the most significant reminder to myself and a push to recover my harden heart.

"Despite your trouble, you say alhamdullilah. In any situation, we praise Allah. Isn't that great? We have to be quick to give credit to Allah. When someone offends you, its a gift from Allah about humility."

"When doing things for Allah, change your attitude and change your intention in life.Deal with disappointment positively. You are not in-charge of the result. You will be more satisfied in life. The efforts you have put in need to be sincerely for Allah to avoid disappointment."

"What people don't see is the inside. First remedy is remembering Allah. Second remedy is to find the good company. Third remedy is remembering to keep your mouth shut. Find a humble way to give advice to Muslim. "

"We want to change people's heart first. You cannot change people's behaviour. Remind own self that theres going to be benefit.Not from others but from Him Almighty.Who's the first to be affected after giving a sincere reminder? Its the person who gives the reminder himself. Don't worry about the result." 

"Don't justify bad behaviour.Sincerity shows. If people mess up. Number one forgive the person. Second ask Allah to forgive them.May Allah keep us humble and capable of taking advice."

Beautiful Hearing

.Surah Yusuf.

Assalammualaikum. I could not describe how emotional I got when listening to  Surah Yusuf while doing my Tajwid assignment. The first time I felt at ease though my list of things to do this month exceed the months before. Maha Suci Allah. You gave me peace when I needed the most. I have never felt this less panicky when I know back in my mind theres tons of things for me to settle with. Syukur Alhamdullilah. Its a different me I feel. A positive and better me I guess. Previously, these kind of situations would make me feel panicky and easily tense up. Alhamdullilah, I am really grateful for this peacefulness which I've gained every time listening to Surah Yusuf as well as after praying. 

Heres the link below. May you gain the inner strength too in whatever you are going through. If we think we are in a difficult situation, think about others whom way suffer more worse than us. A powerful reminder to own self.

http://www.audioislam.com/audio/quran/recitation/al-afaasee/surah_yusuf.mp3

Ps: Its been a long time that I edited my blog. Ive deleted some posts which I wanted to keep them as my personal preference. Heres a new beginning of 2012. Let's welcome new great beginnings to be closer to Him. Insya'allah.