Ramadhan Malam ke-24. Alhamdullilah syukran Ya Allah, majlis Kahlimatul Al Quran berjalan dengan lancar dengan izinMu Ya Rabb. Pasti akan rindu hati ini akan suasana membaca KitabMu beramai-ramai. Masha'allah tiada setanding nikmat Al Quran. Syukran Illahi kerana membenarkan diriku ini menyaksikan dan merasai kemuliaan KitabMu ini.
Semoga ini membuka lembaran baru dan bermakna buat diriku ini yang masih kerdil dalam Ilmu agamaMu Ya Rahman. Semoga diriku ini akan terus mendamba dan merindu membaca KitabMu biarpun akhir Ramadhan kelak. Insyallah moga kita dapat bersama teruskan amalan-amalan suci biarpun sekecil zarah selepas bulan mulia ini, Dia lebih mengetahui keikhlasan hati masing-masing. Marilah kita bersama senantiasa berpandukan dan kembali kepada Al Quran sebagai perangsang dan pedoman hidup di dunia yang sementara ini insya'allah.
Insya'allah semoga diriku ini dapat meneliti dan menghayati bait-bait ayat di dalam kitab suciMu Ya Rabb. Insya'allah itu matlamat ku dan pasti matlamat kita semua insya'allah.
Zikir penenang hati ini amat sayu dan menghayat hati mendengar. Semoga deria-deria kita tidak kering dengan berzikir terhadap Illahi, insyallah, amin.
Di masih bulan Ramadhan yang mulia ini, hambamu yang jahil ini masih perlu banyak memperbaiki diri. Pelbagai yang berlaku, sama ada berkenaan diri ini mahupun orang-orang yang tersayang disekelilingku. Semenjak ini, badan bertindak begitu lain. Doaku hanya Allah tidak memutuskan rahmat keatas diriku juga keluargaku dan teman-temanku untuk mendapat malam yang dinantikan insyallah. Sesungguhnya Allah lebih mengetahui.
Di samping cuba untuk mengawal hawa nafsu yang memang bukanlah mudah Ya Allah, hati ini juga ingin sangat ku curahkan untuk merinduimu. Bulan Ramadhan ini akan pantas berlalu. Sesungguhnya banyak lagi yang belum ku dapat kecapi. Tetapi, dengan ingatanMu untuk hamba-hambamu menjadi manusia yang bersyukur, diri ini tetap bersyukur yang alhamdullilah Ramadhan kali ini lebih berbeza dari yang lalu.
Bersyukur Ya Allah atas terbitnya rasa rindu. Rindu untuk mebaca KitabMu. Amin Ya Rabb. Engkaulah sumber yang memberi ku ketenangan dan memberi ku peringatan. Di samping rindu tersebut, terbit rasa rindu akan pekerjaan lamaku. Rindunya sangat berlainan dan membuat diri ini tertanya-tanya apakah tanda-tanda ini.
Insya'allah Ya Allah, Kau berilah diri ku ini petunjuk. Sesungguhnya perasaan ini tidak akan terbit tanpa izinMu. Insya'allah di bulan mulia ini akan ku cuba mencari jawapannya Ya Rabb.
Syukran juga Illahi atas teman-teman yang Kau pertemukan padaku yang sangat menyayangiMu. Alhamdullilah.
Assalammualaikum. Alhamdullilah syukran, Ramadhan mubarak is here. Anticipating this Ramadhan with a different and mature feeling. Insya'allah it will be a better Ramadhan this year for myself as well for my family, friends and all Muslims around the world. Before reaching Ramadhan, I was very eager for it to come. However, when it is already Ramadhan, a part of my heart hopes that Ramadhan can be lengthen. I felt there still so much for me to learn to be a better muslimah. This past three Ramadhans taught me how essential to manage my time properly for ibadah, family as well as work. Its far from what I expected my body can handle. Its certainly different this year. And insya'allah I'll pray my new tiny step beginnings to be near and understanding as well as loving Al Quran will prolong even after Ramadhan ends insya'allah.
Temptations are everywhere ain't them? Only with His guidance, we will be able to resist those temptations. Ya Allah, the temptations to watch my Korean favourite drama is something I need to work with. Alhamdullilah, for now, I am still able to control. I pray hard, that my heart is strong enough to avoid the temptations and to remember Allah everytime when I think about all those story plots and charasmatic characters. Today's lecture heard by Nouman Ali Kahn again:), is about 'sexual desires'. It matches with what I am dealing right now. Allah berfirman, "Don't come close to the path of sexual desires". Allahhuakabar! Sexual desires are all those small paths taken that which will then eventually lead us to neraka jahanam. Every little closer step we take to nearing sexual desire, we are actually letting syaitan to control what we want to hear. Astargfirllahalazim! Therefore, Ya Allah I am more persevere to make use of this month to avoid watching my addicted Korean dramas which actually without me knowing had little tiny steps of sexual desires in its content.
I admit I can't stop hearing lectures and sharing from Nouman Ali Khan. His sharings are sincere and straight to the point. His talk made me think most of the times. Why are we here to serve Allah? How do we serve Allah? How do we care for people around us? What makes Al Quran great? These are some fo the questions that would always pop when I listened to his talk every time. With His guidance, the words that came out from his mouth were able to stay in my heart too. Thank you Ya Allah, for bringing me some guidance through Brother Nouman. Allah is very merciful indeed. Allah will brings us closer to something/ someone positive that we ourselves didn't know initially. May this video benefit you as well.
Assalammualaikum. Soalan yang ingin saya kongsi yang telah diajukan oleh ustazah di dalam kelas tadi, "Apakah sebenarnya kekuatan Orang Islam?". Mari kita sesama rujuk kembali apa yang telah kita ketahui, pelajari dan bertaqwa tentang Islam. Dapatkah kita memikirkan jawapannya. Pelbagai tadi jawapan diberikan oleh teman-teman sedarjah yang merangkumi: "Keesaan Allah, Lillahita'ala (Nawaitu kita kerana Allah s.w.t), Rukun Iman dan Rukun Islam, Solat, Agama Islam itu sendiri, Al-Quran dan Sunnah".
Ustazah pun memberitahu yang kesemua jawapan kita hampir tepat. Ustazah pun lanjutkan soalannya, "Bagaimanakah kita semua dapat tahu mengenai Keesaan Allah, Lillahita'ala (Nawaitu kita kerana Allah s.w.t), Rukun Iman dan Rukun Islam, Solat, Agama Islam itu sendiri, Al-Quran dan Sunnah? Bukankah disebabkan seseorang yang istimewa?" Tiada lain iaitu Rasullulah s.a.w yang dicintai. Ya Allah kekuatan Islam itu sebenarnya ialah cinta kita kepada Nabi Muhammad s.a.w dan sepastinya Allah s.w.t. Tanpa Rasullullah s.a.w bertungkus-lumus menyebarkan agama Allah tidaklah kita dapat mengetahui Islam sebenarnya. Maha Suci Allah. Betapa besarnya darjatmu Rasullullah s.a.w.
Sesungguhnya diri ini masih terlalu lemah. Ya Allah berilah kami kemudahan untuk mendekatkan diri denganMu dan bukakanlah hati kami untuk mencintaiMu serta juga Rasullullah s.a.w. Syukran atas kelahiran Nabi Muhammad s.a.w yang besar mukjizatnya. Maha Suci Allah. Ya Allah bukakanlah hatiku ini untuk lebih mengenali nabi kami, Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. Marilah kami sesama renungkan betapa dalam kita mengenali Nabi kita.
Marilah kita sesama berselawat ke atas Nabi Muhammad s.a.w:
(syukran kepada hamba Allah yang telah memperkenalkan saya dengan video-video di bawah)
Assalammualaikum. Have you ever looked at someone and just felt distance to be with that person? Have you ever judged someone through their appearance or behavior? With full regrets and disappointment I did and I am still learning to overcome all these negativity. After recollecting myself in updating this blog yesterday, I've came across a video about Islam and Ego from Nouman Ali Khan through MariaElena's blog (peliks.blogspot.com) . Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui. He knows.
Who am I to give judgement to others? Who am I to give assumption on others? Who am I? After listening to his talk, it rekindled inside of me how much I have changed inside. Have I really changed inside? The question bombarded me violently. Maybe. But to what extent? Do I do everything sincerely for Allah. Do I? Ya Allah, only to you I surrender myself and only you know what is inside of me. What we feel and do inwardly may jeopardize our spiritual especially to Allah.
Astarghfirllah. With God fate, I had stumbled upon this hearing so as to reflect on my heart. Too many bad deeds have been done. How often do I remember Allah? Have I been deceived by my goodness all these while? Astargfirllah. Theres still so much for me to learn to be a humble muslim and it all begins from inside. Ego is the most dangerous source of which it may lead our good intention for Allah to another desire (for people or duniawi). Arrogance came without wanting but we know about it. Nobody knows about what is going on inside our heart but only ourselves and Him. Our heart is the most vulnerable weapon. I need to do something about my heart insyallah. I need to change my attitude and intention in life. I need to constantly remind myself to not expect results and try my best in everything I do as long as my intention is for Him. Can that happen? Insyallah with perseverance I would say. I do not want to be drowned in my egoness. Who are we to be in-charge of the results of our doings? Every decisions is in His hands. Insyallah Ya Allah, you show me the hidayah to cleanse my heart. I do not want to lie to myself as well as to you. I believe every new positive is not easy to implement, but insyallah. He listens.
There were too many take-away from this video. Below were the most significant reminder to myself and a push to recover my harden heart.
"Despite your trouble, you say alhamdullilah. In any situation, we praise Allah. Isn't that great? We have to be quick to give credit to Allah. When someone offends you, its a gift from Allah about humility."
"When doing things for Allah, change your attitude and change your intention in life.Deal with disappointment positively. You are not in-charge of the result. You will be more satisfied in life. The efforts you have put in need to be sincerely for Allah to avoid disappointment."
"What people don't see is the inside. First remedy is remembering Allah. Second remedy is to find the good company. Third remedy is remembering to keep your mouth shut. Find a humble way to give advice to Muslim. "
"We want to change people's heart first. You cannot change people's behaviour. Remind own self that theres going to be benefit.Not from others but from Him Almighty.Who's the first to be affected after giving a sincere reminder? Its the person who gives the reminder himself. Don't worry about the result."
"Don't justify bad behaviour.Sincerity shows. If people mess up. Number one forgive the person. Second ask Allah to forgive them.May Allah keep us humble and capable of taking advice."
Assalammualaikum. I could not describe how emotional I got when listening to Surah Yusuf while doing my Tajwid assignment. The first time I felt at ease though my list of things to do this month exceed the months before. Maha Suci Allah. You gave me peace when I needed the most. I have never felt this less panicky when I know back in my mind theres tons of things for me to settle with. Syukur Alhamdullilah. Its a different me I feel. A positive and better me I guess. Previously, these kind of situations would make me feel panicky and easily tense up. Alhamdullilah, I am really grateful for this peacefulness which I've gained every time listening to Surah Yusuf as well as after praying.
Heres the link below. May you gain the inner strength too in whatever you are going through. If we think we are in a difficult situation, think about others whom way suffer more worse than us. A powerful reminder to own self.
Ps: Its been a long time that I edited my blog. Ive deleted some posts which I wanted to keep them as my personal preference. Heres a new beginning of 2012. Let's welcome new great beginnings to be closer to Him. Insya'allah.
Ya Allah..Subhanallah..While waiting for subuh prayers, I opened the Al-Quran, with the niat asking for his petunjuk..and I flipped on this page..Ya Allah...sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mendengar Ya Allah.. Engkau mengetahui apa yang tersembunyi di sudut hati hamba-hambamu. Terima kasih Ya Allah kerana memberi hambamu ini sesuatu kekuatan di pagy hary ini sebelum menjejakkan kaki ku bertugas.
Sesunggunhnya Ya Allah, dekatkanlah hamba mu yang daif ini dengan hamba-hamba mu yang dekat denganmu. Jauhilah hambamu ini dari hamba-hamba mu yang jauh amat darymu dan yang lalai dengan duniawi. Bersihkanlah haty hambamu ini dengan ilmu dan senantiasa meingatimu Ya Allah, insyallah.
